Care without Caring

My laptop battery is at 12% and I left my plug at my studio. This post will be quick. Is life meant to be peaceful? There are many translations of 'peace', and it's a question for all, thus I am not going to define peace because whatever it means to you is important. Lately my life hasn't been peaceful. It has been chaotic, fast, rushed, and almost nervously unsettling. Is it because I am busier than normal? Is it because I have much more responsibility in my life than ever before? Is it because I am saying yes to much and no to little. Is it because I'm averaging 4-5hrs of sleep a night (by my choice so I'm not complaining, but am hurting a bit and reaping the consequences). I believe these all attribute slightly. But the main source I am finding is other people. I am not at peace when I worry about what other people think of my actions. I work in an industry that is all about promoting world class services to people. Assisting them, teaching them, selling to them, listening to them, and ultimately making their daily experience better than the day priors. It's rewarding, fun, ever-changing, relatively easy, but damn taxing at times! Some days I go in, I am a rockstar and I don't care what the members and or people think and those days go great. Others however, I worry. I let other people's emotions, thoughts, and feelings dictate my peace. Because lets be honest, no matter how well one does something, if the other person doesn't think they did it well they look at you differently. They treat you differently, and they talk about you and to you differently. This is a sad truth that forces me to learn how to continuously care without truly caring. What a conundrum! I love life's conundrums. Conundrums make the world go round, along with questions, and oxygen, and water...... Ok, 1%....here's to conundrums!