Irreplaceable

Fall is upon Portland. Summer just began 2 weeks ago and the past three mornings were grey. The plaid is coming out of the closet. The white sperry's are put away on the shelf, and the mixture of shorts with sweaters or denim with T's is fighting this fight as long as possible.

I've been finishing up lessons out at Pumpkin Ridge. It is nice to have your own work schedule. Indubitably, one day that will be the norm. I'm looking forward to my last family dinner tonight, I hope it goes in slow motion. Why are goodbyes so hard? Why, despite excitement, knowledge, hopefulness, and optimism about what my next chapter will be, I don't want to write the concluding paragraph of the current? Is it because of the tough goodbye's I've experienced in the past? Partly yes, but if you all know me, you know what I would say to that. An emphatic word that rhymes with luck. The past is gone, nothing can be done about it. The future is bright. We can dream and imagine all we want, but the present is where life breathes. This current moment of mine at Barista, on a crisp, cloudy, fall day is where my heart lays. And I must say, it is laying comfortably. It's resting, it's calm, its relaxed, in fact it's legs are stretched straight, back is slighty arched up, and if I weren't typing the hands would behind the head until they reached for the Italiano to my right. The brick walls are fitting for the fall day, the people in plaid are making me think of Thanksgiving. Sidetrack...can we skip Halloween all-together and just do a Thanksgiving month! Back on track...I'm going to miss this wooden deck, these cool steel chairs, the white sign that reads beatiful simplicity in a cup. And this is why I hope tonight goes in slow motion. Because I'm going to miss my crew. I'm going to miss my family. I'm going to miss Aaron, Vanessa, Nate, Jeff, and Tanya. I'm going to miss VanRon Yards. Will there be other Yards and people yes. But that doesn't negate the goodbye. Will others fill their role, NO WAY! So much love, so much excitement, so many memories, and so much life was shared together that nobody, no time, and no distance could take away what they mean to me!

Who means this much to you? Who is irreplaceable in your life? Do they know they are irreplaceable? Have you shown them how much you value them? If not, what better time than the present! What better time than the current breathe you take right now. This week has been tremendous for me. This week is only going to get better with the things in store that are planned. Tomorrow's lunch is much anticipated. Friday's gathering/party is going to be Hollywood! Saturday's waking, eating, and exploring will be new and then the packing will ensue. The remembering of what the last two years of my life consisted of. Yikes, where to begin. So much transpired. Words won't suffice. The people within these two years know who they are and that is enough because they were there! They are still there this week! And they will be there in the life to come!

With that, I am going unabashed and non-unique. I am stealing, check that, borrowing words from a girl that can lay it down! Cheers to this Freakin Weekend, I will drink to that! So, Whatever your beverage of choice is, may it be shared with the ones who are Irrrrrreeeplaceaaable!